Wednesday, April 13, 2005
WARNING: self-loathing
miedosaI began laughing and it reminded me of my sadness. So, I only half smiled and looked away. I didn’t want anyone to see that pathetic look of pain on my face. I couldn’t stand anyone asking what was wrong- what has been bothering me. I couldn’t bare to hear one more word of unwarranted advice. Those arrogant and heartless words hurt my head and make me want pick up my fucking plate and bash in their heads. I can’t even fucking laugh today... I can’t fucking stand myself any longer. I don’t want to be seen this way. I didn’t want to ever feel so alone again, I don’t think I have felt this damaged since 1996. I didn’t want to feel so out of control again, but I am here and I have to do something, quick, to get over it.
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feeling any better since you posted?
hope you are feeling better, quki :)
ok. getting over it- slowly..with watson by my side.
what is watson. watson is the devil, i guess.
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