goodbye march 2005

miedosa
I just got back from out walking my thoughts. My mind raced between adolescent death wishes and formulating a plan. I had lots to write, but I forgot it all. I remember this, though...
I have nothing to offer. I want to be taken care of. I want to make a man feel like a man and in return I want to feel ensconced in the safety of a man. I want someone that finds my quirkiness cute—as opposed to my insanity unpractical.

i think it is time for a new profile picture.

miedosa
this one is begining to look warped.

S.O.S.

miedosa
I feel broken. I don’t speak often because I have nothing left to say. All that is left is uncertainty with a tinge of sadness; nothing worth articulating. There is nothing that fills me, nothing is created and I feel emotions all the time. I need to be changed because I am worn-out and don’t know where to begin.

productive day...

miedosa
did alot. accomplished nothing... yet.

why, o why??

do i sit here and spend time on the internet when i should be doing more productive things with my time?? i was just asking my self when i found this piece of glory on earth:
http://www.pixyland.org/peterpan/
where else am i going to find such poise and beauty?? huh??Enjoy People!

DaRtH!! thanks for the links!!

miedosa

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Like always ~you rock!!

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pavy!!!!! thanks for the tunes!!!!

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just cruising through images on google and i found this.. i thought it was funny, although slightly in bad taste..
thanks again!

Ten things I think would make my life better, I think.

miedosa

1. money, and lots of it. I mean-- obscene amounts. ok, just enough for shoes, house, bills, and 3 vacations a year would do.
2. having a view of the ocean from my bedroom.
3. being completely disciplined, organized, and in control.
4. owning a BMW 3.0Csi , silver.
5. owning my own business. Not important what kind of business.. as long as it kept me busy and interested long enough.
6. having 10 pairs of jeans that fit perfectly.
7. hating beer, bread, and fried food. (I would automatically drop 20 lbs.)
8. having a dining room in my house.. I live in a tiny house that does not have a dining room and so we usually eat in the living room because the kitchen is too cramped. I hate eating in the living room- we end up watching tv.
9. never again doubt my abilities or feeling afraid to fail.
10. a Jacuzzi tub.. yeah, that would be nice…..

you might find this pathetic..

miedosa but i call this my home away from hell experience... http://www.corona.com/flash/index.php

ahhhhh.

i stole this from http://mcgibfried.blogspot.com/

sorry, creativity is not my 'forte"

My favorite band is______: The Smiths-- The Pixies--
Can I ______ You: smell
______ a tree:Crash into
I play the______: boyfriend's skin flute
Pass the______: Pass the Dutchie on
the left hand side
Kill me______: a cow?
Do______: fun things, always
I have to______: sit still
I feel______: aroused
I______you: Love
Love is______: sad
To be scared is______: obvious
Kiss______:me
Black_____: shoes


off to the deserted isle...
book: captain's verses
cd: exodus
celeb guest: ewan mcgreggor
personal item: ahem.....
food: filet mignon.. mashed potatoes, wine, panqueques con dulce de leche..

perdida, mira lo q'encontre...mi amor

miedosa
te acordas??
mis brazos se sienten inútiles,
sin tu cuerpo envuelto en ellos.
tus besos vuelan en mi mente,
mientras intento concentrarme,
en algún detalle usual y aburrido de mi laburo,
lo cual nunca lograré hacer.
tu ausencia me mata lentamente,

Decisions, decisions

so, how is everyone doing today? down half a pound. want a new job. laughed out loud with the boys. jonah stuffed a pillow in diegos tee-shirt and he fell and could not get up. funny kid stuff. glad i can still laugh at simple silliness. i am hungry but don't know what i want to eat.. what would you eat if you were me?

Tuesday March 8---

miedosa
market list:
toilet paper, meat, that pasta ryan likes, salad stuff, lunch meat, cheese, potatoes, spinach (yummy), case of water, laundry detergent.
then it is off to the tanning salon.
jonah has ot at 4-- he must complete paragraphs 4 and 5 for colony report.
dinner--'filet mignon'--yeah, i wish.
oh yeah, down two lbs. (don't ask how).
i could go on with my boring bliss.......mwuahhh!

watch me self-destruct

miedosa
What is it with me lately?! I feel a huge inequity.. I just want to hide. I know that has to be obvious by my personality (or lack of one, cause I do not want to talk when I am like this). So, I have decided to loose as much weight as possible. Sounds like an ‘after school special’, don’t it? And those stupid shows never have a happy ending.

ryan

miedosa

You Are the Very Gay Peppermint Patty!

Softball is the huge tipoff here... As well as a "best friend" who loves to call her "sir"

What Gay Childhood Icon Are You?

now i found this funny...

miedosa should i worry??

You Know You Drink Too Much When...

Your doctor finds traces of blood in your alcohol stream. The back of your head keeps getting hit by the toilet seat. The parking lot seems to have moved while you were in the bar When you go to donate blood and they ask what proof? You think the Four Basic Food Groups are Caffeine, Nicotine, Alcohol, and Hotties. You have a "happy hour" at home When you are sober, people ask you what's wrong? You spend all night making a board game called Alcohol Land Although you drove home the other night you can't remember how you got home or where you parked your car "Hi ocifer. I'm not under the affluence of incohol." Your favorite drink is ethanol. "Why does everybody think I have a prinking droblem?! - I don't have a prinking droblem!" "I don't have a drinking prob..pleb..prub.. *hic* Pash me another, tarbender." You can spend a whole night holding up walls to prevent their (your) collapse. You instinctively know where the alcohol is in a store you've never been in before Clubs raise their drink prices because you haven't attended in a while You think beer and ramen make a good breakfast You frequently urinate outdoors. When you first wake up and you're afraid you're gonna die and a half-hour later you're afraid you won't. You fall asleep taking a dump. You believe that spilling a beer is alcohol abuse. You go to the john to hurl, but you take your beer with you. You find it's easier to study drunk. You're on a first name basis at the detoxification center. Beer ads make sense. You wake up to the sound of your dog drinking out of the toilet and you're so dry that it sounds mighty thirst quenching. You wake the next morning and start drinking a few of the half empties left sitting around the room. The space on your driver's license that tells your eye color reads "bloodshot". You fall down a flight of steps and DON'T spill a drop of your beer. You mix your cocktails by the litre. You grow a beard because it stops beer that's running down your chin. You put off urinating in hopes of reaching that near orgasmic Zen-like piss. When the bottle says 20 standard drinks but you only get 5. You spell Alcohol with a capital letter out of respect You lose arguments with inanimate objects. You have to hold onto the lawn to keep from falling off the earth Your career won't progress beyond Senator from Massachusettes. 24 hours in a day, 24 beers in a case - coincidence?? - I think not! Two hands and just one mouth... - now THAT'S a drinking problem! "Norm!" is what they say when you enter the bar. You can focus better with one eye closed The parking lot seems to have moved while you were in the bar You fall off the floor. You discover in the morning that liquid cleaning supplies have mysteriously disappeared. Hey, 5 beers has just as many calories as a burger, screw dinner! Beer: it's not just for breakfast anymore. The glass keeps missing your mouth. Vampires get woozy after bitting you. At AA meeting you begin: "Hi, my name is... uh..." Your idea of cutting back is less seltzer. You wake up in the bedroom, your underwear is in the bathroom, you fell asleep clothed. - hmm. Every night you're beginning to find your roomate's cat more and more attractive. If you're on a diet, you cut back your food calories to allow for alcohol calories. "Take me drunk, I'm home!" You wake up naked lying in the corner of a bus depot. You drink to get over a hangover. You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends who drink too much.

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OMG! that previous blog is super lame!

miedosa
let's see how long i can bare to see it here..

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miedosa

You Are the Very Gay Tinky Winky!

Purple with a gay pride symbol... how could he not be gay? And that red purse is divalicious!

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