the party in my head

tell me something i don't know

something new and fluffy.

tell me something different and forgiving.

make me forget the quiet boredom, the silly loneliness

those moments i dream a scream inside my head..

let me know tomorrow will want me

But forget me, if only for today...
As today i will be a recluse

i will gloat and float and fear

until you tell me something i did not know

hope in a box

Those pills don't work
They make me sick
And do strange things:
Not feel a thing
Or give a fuck

That's not me.

It happens often.

I'll sink myself
Into the deep end
I'll float back up
To stare blindingly at the sun
And I'll find my way
Eventually