Wednesday, August 05, 2015

I don’t believe in consequences

Sunday, August 05, 2012


I feel too much
I say too much
I think too much
I want too much
I drink too much
I need too much
I sleep too much
I whine too much
I eat too much
I cry too much
I love too much
I'm never enough
I'm never right
I'm self entitled
I deserve what I get
I'm free to pretend like it's all I deserve
I'm sorry I feel..and I say...and I love.
I question out of turn.
Im sorry.
I'm living the life of an amputated turd.

Saturday, July 21, 2012

I'm tired of waiting

Girls hate me

Because I 
Hate 
myself. 


Sleep now
while you can still wake up
To sunshine
And the smell of
Coffee and cigarettes

Sleep now
She said
To all who are tired.
Sleep while there's dreams left in that head of yours.

Tuesday, March 01, 2011

the party in my head

tell me something i don't know
something new and fluffy.
tell me something different and forgiving.
make me forget the quiet boredom, the silly loneliness
those moments i dream a scream inside my head..
let me know tomorrow will want me
But forget me, if only for today...
As today i will be a recluse
i will gloat and float and fear
until you tell me something i did not know

hope in a box



Those pills don't work
They make me sick
And do strange things:
Not feel a thing
Or give a fuck

That's not me.

It happens often.

I'll sink myself
Into the deep end
I'll float back up
To stare blindingly at the sun
And I'll find my way
Eventually


Friday, January 07, 2011

...and so i left her standing there in a puddle of pills

'nuff's said, i'm dead'
she said:
'more regret.. always fret.. and never ever forget'
but she forgot to mention that she had no intention of leaving 
or running 
or changing 
or staying."

" i'm looking for distractions
 i'm needing more attention than i deserve
i sleep all day 
and talk all night 
I'll drink and think 
until i die."

She told me she had forgotton who she was 
And what she's been 
and all that she had seen. 

"it all belonged to another time 
and another girl" 

she had lost or forgot it all.. she said

"but there is always music
laughter...love...
touch ... 
and wine to fill my soul
i have sadness caused by nothingness 
and i know i am and need so much more."

she bored me with her self importance 
So.. i left her there 
Talking to herself.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

el sol no descuenta mi tristeza.
no affecta mi aburrimiento
pero igual lo extranio- como uno extrania lo lejano
intocable, inseguro, me abandona
a veses por dias.
a veses por momentos
pero siempre por la noche cuando mas me siento sola.

Wednesday, December 08, 2010

universo comienza y termina con dos bebidas

dos bebidas mescladas con temor
no sirven pa'nada
solo causan dolor.
y el dia siguiente uno siente horor
y pide perdon a su gente y a su Dios
pero nadie lo escucha y se aduenian del dolor
todos somos victimas del aburrimiento
por causa de las dos bebidas tomadas con temor.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

HUMOR ME

mission: self destruction. can't be done. won't be done. must get well.feel like hell.

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